facts

Young.

b logging is as usual.
i still have my bad and gd times.
somewhere how i feel like a complete failure.
am i escaping from reality or i'm jus completely dumb.
dun ask me why or how.
shld i noe myself best.
but sometimes i jus dunno myself.
am i really cut out for certain things.
why do i always fcuk things up.
wondering where did everything go.
its kinda realli big step.
a very big step i have to take.
since when i've become lidis.
getting so uptight and afraid.
afraid everything might go wrong.
why do i always learn n make the same mistakes.
somewhere i jus wanna vent all the doubts abt myself.
i cant blame anyone but myself.
things tat i did myself.
i dunno how to say.
learn learn and learn.
shld it be tat learning and making the same mistake.
but why am i dng so.
i wanna change.
i'm trying to change for the better.
i dunno how far can i go.
how far can i reach.
i wonder wad mistake can i do again.
i dun wanna let ppl around me feel so disappointed.
but again and again.
i let them feel so disappointed.
learn learning learnt.
how far have i gone.

i jus hope i dun make the same mistakes again.
i'm not blaming anyone.
jus wanna let myself out.
start thinking bout dng the right things.
saying the right thing.
making the right choice.
somehow my mind is in a mess now.
thinkk straight bah.
guess tats all i wanna say now.