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i jus woke up late in the afternoon. dun realli noe where to go and i haven eat yet. dun realli feel hungry. sch is starting and i dun feel like gng back sch. wondering shld i go blue tonight. haa. kinda reluctant to go and i dun even noe who is gng. haish. feelin so bored. i sat down and think last nite after i had my post and went around looking at blogs. i see lots of sadness and confusion in some of the blogs. haa. i looked at myself and ask why am i feeling the same? tat qns popped up again and again. i started thinking bout myself and i tot myself to be selfish. i dunno why either. looking at the things tat i've been throu and done. i felt lots of apologies to be done. sometimes i jus dun understand myself. i dun understand myself no more. ppl always say fate chance love lonely and unappreciated.
Should we believe in fate?
muz we take a chance?
shld we dare to love?
quit being lonely?
always feel unappreciated?
i long for this answer. why does it always seem near yet so far. why always regret when looking back. muz things always be dare do and let it go? we always have someone who loves us. but we tend to always stay unnoticed or dunno how to cherish e love. i'm sori. i jus felt this way. cuz i've been throu it. and let her down. i noe how i feels. but sometimes wen u found out tat both doesnt realli suit each other. u'll find ur self in a dilemma cuz u'll either lying to her or hurting her. and u have to make a choice. choices are something tat u never wanted to make. but u have no choice but to make a selfish decision. haish. i dunno wad to say no more. lols. =))