Hollywood Undead - The dairy

cus I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin these streets
for too long now
I've got nothing thats true
but this song now
but the further I go
I wanna go home
cus I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin these streets
for too long now
I've got nothing thats true
but this song now
but the further I go
I wanna go home
I fuckin' swear that I care
but its hard when you stare
into the bottom of a bottle
that is empty and bare
all my desolate soul
in my desolate home
it's my desolate role
yeah I'm here all alone
I can't think of a reason
to get the fuck out of bed
curtains closed, lights are off
Am I alive or dead?
I haven't shaved in a week
I always slur when I speak
tolerance at its peak
another fit just to sleep
oh woe is me woe is me
I guess I need love
hoes ya see hoes ya see
I'm just in a rut
and I swear I'm tryin baby please
Baby don't leave
god-damn I'm a fuck-up
But I guess that's just me
so I sit in my room
and I'll cry in my bed
thinkin about all the shit
that made me wrong in my head
I keep tryin to climb
but it seems so steep
pour myself a fuckin' whisky
and go back to sleep.... bitch
cus I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin these streets
for too long now
I've got nothing thats true
but this song now
but the further I go
I wanna go home
cus I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin these streets
for too long now
I've got nothing thats true
but this song now
but the further I go
I wanna go home

Young


im basically still awake.
at charles place.
was suppose to study!
and im having the paper in the noon.
luckily. *phew*
but im still not prepared.
sigh~
MIIT is a stupid paper!
Not forgetting WCS on fri. =.=
ahh.
ive got no motivation to study at all.
it seems like holidays 2weeks ago.
=x

sun was dad's birthday.
didnt noe wad to get him.
so decided to make lunch.
aunts n uncles was over.
they played mj and i was suppose to fix lunch.

LUNCH SET was..
sweet corn/potato/carrot/onion/pork rib soup.
chicken breast on thai bbq sauce.
egg tofu with egg white/mince meat/mushroom.
long beans with diced garlic/oyster sauce.
deep fried meat balls.

everything tasted nice xcept for the chicken.
which too much marination was used. =.=
kinda salty. i had to add water to lighten the salty taste.
but the rest was jus nice.
aunt say nxt time any girl marry me cfm good life.
LOL!.
CUZ I CAN COOK!
YAN CAN COOK SO CAN JOE! :D
but cannot compare to him lah. =x
i think i jus love cooking.
its nice watch ppl eating the food u cook with the effort put in.

Happy birthday Dad.

you noe.
it's said that it's best to lose it than regret it
but well.
i guess i just gotta live with this regret.

nutting much.
walking around aimlessly.
wondering what should i do nxt.
but jus couldnt find any idea.
so i jus walk around.
walk walk walk.
and i ended home.
i feel lifeless already.
sigh~

life's all about reality.
facing reality and living simple

Young


somehow like disconnected from the world.
life is work sch work sch.
and Dsb.
Not forgetting my brother pat when he books out.
Tat i've come to realise im missing out on my other friends. x=
and ive not been skating for awhile already. =x =x
Shuwen gonna go blar blar blar blar hor. =x =x =x

and im still coughing =x =x =x =x
sigh~
here am i looking around at everyone's interesting life
on their blog. very happening sia.
ya. i should beautify my life too eh.
how?

life's jus like a puzzle.
after u arranged everything,
u'll see the complete picture.
everyone tends to stray away from the path.
failing to notice certain things around.
failing to cherish.
ive walk the path before and uds the this feeling.
how it feels to lose someone close.
how it feels to not able to carry out the duty of a son.
yeah. tats the feeling.
makes me wonder the day tat i'll die.
how will it end up?


Pay day's coming again.
And it be gone real soon.
And im still waiting for PathFinders pay.
As shuwen mentioned its freaking $39 Bucks.
=.=
How long sia how long ah NP!!
sigh~

Recuit Lau Y.Y Reporting.
Recuit Tan Zi Bing Reporting.
Everyone in NS liao.
Waiting for my time as well.
Ahhhh.
Times really flies
Pat's gonna leave for Taiwan in hours time.