sick

Young

ahhh..
its been awhile since joe have to see a doc.
i'm sick... sigh~ but oh well get an mc tml..
and i'll have 3 days of holis.. =)
been rather feeling easily tired recently
cant seem to get enough sleep.

yea. bought my skates with charles.
got to know a few new frens.
mayb gng sch to skate with e senoirs on tues.
yea.. =))

went bottoms on fri wif dsb and frens.
jus another night out.
guess i shld be on my way to see a doc.
oh well. i guess i was the selfish and pathetic one.
seems hell have well gone on loose.
=)
no one has made a wrong decision.
everyone was correct with their decision.
adios.

alone

Young

Ever felt so alone?
ahahahahah.


I look around and i realli shld feel lucky to still be alive.
Its was jus somethings tat i met continued to
show i was lucky. =x
I swear there was a reason for me wanting to go 309 on wed.
Ya.. there was a reason for my feeling of gng..
haa.. but i din realli enjoyed e trip after dat.
i'll jus spare the details. =x

skate training was disappointing today.
sigh.~ lets not talk bout it..
but company is talking abt getting skates this sat.
so most prob we gng out to shop with e seniors. =D



sch was as usual. having 3 hr break tml.
killer time slot. wad shld i do..
morning lesson is tutorial. and i skipped tat last wk.
dun think i shld skip it tml.. ahahaha.
muz be guai to attend class. thou its boring.. C=
guess i shld turn in already.
realli feeling tired..
Godspeed.

alrights

Young

I swear i hate my life.
leonard says he's gonna see my cry in 10days
I'm gonna prove him wrong.
muahahaha..
There's nuttin i cant take lar.
=_

Well i guess there's nuttin even sadder~
isit how u use it? lOls.

Had an eye opening nite today @ 309
Laughs*
Prays on WED.
HOPES*
Give it to me.
I'm seeing it..
Muahahahah.
* BLINK BLINK *
LOLs.

Wonder wad should i look for in life.
Cause i find myself pacing on the same road of life.
Anyway i somehow saw the coming future.
Somehow saw things tat will be happening.
Somehow had the feeling it was coming. =)
Laughs*
Or shld i say i had the feeling long ago.
hmmx. Not realli sure thou. lOls.


Loneliness been my best fren b4 i slp.
Tears been my prayers before i turn to bed.
=)

Guess i shld be slping.
Wishs for a better day tml.
I know it'll be better.
ahaha..

ah

Young.

Hate me. =)
dun ask me why. Hate me.





havin TP prac now.
and i din bring my lap. cuz i didnt noe. =x
so had to borrow from guan.
yea.

had a fun day out yesterday with pat and aung.
laughing our ass our whole day.
with all the *blink blink* and *blink blink blink*
laughs*
preparing for prac but have to wait to install e software.
so now blog abit lols. kill the boredom.
have u wondered why tears roll from the eyes?
I guessed its the things that you see
which makes you sad or down.
They tell me everything in this world is temporary.
Even happiness is jus temporary.
Sad is no exception. =)
Yea. so nuttin last forever.
When you want to love someone.
Jus wish her to be happy.
You'll be happy to.
Jus let youself live with the sadness of not being able to
be with the one u love. =)) ahahahaha.



Sometimes its best not knowing the truth. =)

Silly

Young

jus woke up from my slumber.
still feeling tired but jus couldnt get back to slp.
boring sunday.
and there's sch tml. haish.
another boring week to come.
Sat was boring as usual.
anyone wanna go out?
gimmi a call hao ma..
=))

just b o r i n g

Jesse Mccartney - Just so you know.

forgetful

Young

another boring day to me.. =x
haa. skipped 2 lessons today.
1wks bah. nvm =D
but lectures are realli boring.
sigh~
skipped 3pm's lesson.
guan vin kenny came over dota session.
hahaha.. den dinner downstairs lor..
guess i'm turning in soon le.
tired liao..
wad kind of ppl are the most happy ppl?
i mus be the happiest guy.
ahahahaha..
forgetful Joe.. =))
jus looking forward to each day sleeping.
ahahaha..
i nid sleepppppppp..
muahahahah..
nytes..

thurs.

Young.

Had a change of skin. looks cute to me..
actually i oso dunno wad to blog abt.
but jus type type few things lor.
sch was boring as usual.
skipping lessons as usual.
dun feel like studying already.
shld i go NS first?
haha.. they tell me finish sch first.
but yea.. laughs*
ahhh.. nvm bah. jus whinning. =x
boring lessons for tml again..
wondering shld i skip sch tml..
haa.. =.=
dunno wad am i looking forward to.
i guess i shld find some goals in life..
something for me to look forward to each day.
how i wish everyday oso dun have to study. =x
tired.. feeling very tired.

Wang li Hong - Can you feel my word.


i wonder*
what has a guy gotta lose when he's lost everything?
lols..

anyway. i guess i shld turn in already.
i shld really rest earlier everyday.
jus looking forward to pass each day.
adios*

.hihi

TILL THE END

All these precious moments
With you by my side
Must be a gift from heavens
Thats holding me all night
I don't know how I found you
I'm thankful that Ihave
Now that I have a love so true
To hold to keep to share
In my heart I can no longer hold inside
All the love I use to hide
I'll always be with you until the very end
In this way theres no place I'd rather be
You are my life my soul my girl
And through it all I know
That you'll come to see that you're the one till the end
All my friends around me
Say you'd be gone too soon
Baby I'm gonna make them see
We've found our way back home
We'll always be till the end.

quiet

think i'm falling sick soon..
gng inline skating club with charles and pat.
try and pass my time as usual.
now waiting for the confirmation to work at creative sales.
but 3 days only. and its wed to fri
dunno got sch anot.. sigh.
class is realli boring.
IS entrepre is realli sigh..
haish..
lesson at 10 later..
muz slp liao..
feel like moving out to stay.
anyone interesting in renting flats to stay?
laughs*
gotta find stuff to do..
i realli nid to divert my attention else where..
harloooos..
My name is JOE..!
ahahaha..
bOOOO..
i jus wanna say..

alrights

Young

3 simple words..
I miss you.
I've never regretted loving you.
Never regretted making the decision.
My only regret is i cant continue to love you.
Yea.. alrights.
Past has past
As you've said.
No one is at fault.
Its best that way.
Right?
I just hope everything is fine for you.
I really dun wish to see you sad.
Haish. Smile..

boo huu

Young

first day of sch.
and how do u describe this kind of "sensation"
ahaha..
i requesting for a change of class..
hopefully i can have a change of class..
pray*
its like i'm back to year one like e freshies. =x
boring lectures boring class boring sch.
haish..

Yong Qi - Guang Liang
listening to it rite now.
jus had my dinner and its like 1am.
haa..
i have irregular eating and slping time..
ahahahaha..

i'm kinda lost for words for thoughts.
everything seems blank once again.
speechless and mindless..
how will everything change.
i'm getting afraid of taking a step infront now.
i'm picking myself up.
telling myself to move on.
making myself happier.
when will i find my courage and strength.
or will i even find them back.
everytime i close my eyes i see you.
every nite i try to turn in i dream of you.
nobody has done me wrong.
nobody has to apologise for anything.
nobody owe me anything.
I'm jus this one tiny life in this planet.
mircoscopic to the naked eye.
wandering again once more.

mrselfishboi

Young

alrights. jus let mr joe do the talking once more. ahh.. hao de.. good and bad is jus a thin line away. true.. i'm jus the bad guy now. its my fault for turning into this. my fault for feeling this way and my fault for acting like this. yea. all i have to is jus carry on look forward thinkin positive act like nuttin has happen before continue be joe jus smile and laugh go drink drank drunk and carry my life jus like before. yesh.

life isnt abt choices anymore.
more of accepting ur fate.
ahahaha..
accepting the choice tat comes ur way.
wit arms wide open.
jus leave me alone bah.
i'm fine.. jus abit naggy and stuffs.
ahahahaha. Joe is old lar..
not young anymore.
everything was my fault bah.
i was selfish i ask for so much
i didn felt ur needs
all i think was abt myself
different mindset
different character
yesh all different.
jus not meant to be.

dun ask me why am i turning like dis.
i've just changed.
joe is a changed man.
ahahaha.. for now..
i jus nid time to cool down myself.
forget abt the past carry on..
everything was jus wrong from start eh..
jus tell me wads love..
i'm jus disappointed and sad why everything has to
turn out lidis in the end.

a

can anyone understand everything that is gng on now?
i dun even noe myself..
everything is happening at once now.
i feel like myself gng crazy.
i'm realli gng crazy..
move on move on move on
ya i noe i have to move on.
all i think abt is myself.
all i wanted was for myself to be happy
i do everything for myself
me me me
its all abt me..
this is joe..
joe is me.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
i jus wanna scream my lungs out..
i jus felt like jus dying..
why is joe so weak now.
why is he dng dis to himself.
i wished i noe.
i jus noe tat wad i've lost i'll nv get back.
i lost my mum.
nobody wanted it to happen.
i didnt want it to happen.
seeing dad acting this way.
i realli dunno wad to do.
i'm so afraid. so lost.
i feel i'm forgetting who am i already.
Joe's a changed man.
I've changed.

re fu se

Young

can anyone hear me say?
i guess i was not the onli one whos feeling down.
i was selfish.
and now i'm useless..
i didnt noe i fail as a son.
my world seems to come crushing
and everythings falling.
for the first time
i saw my dad throwing temper.
and i jumped off from my bed.
got a shock waking up.
i realised if i wake up having shock i'll have a headache.
for the first time dad complained.
i realised how much i fail in everything.
can anyone understand my feelings?
how i wish mum was around.
yea
Joe onli noes how to complaint.
sometimes i wonder how bad can thing go.
tired..
i'm feeling realli tired..

R E F U S E

Young

R E F U S E.
I took my time and look back to everything once more.
told myself mayb it was time. do i have other choice left
but to accept this fact? can i choose in the first place?
or was there even a choice for me..
I looked back and saw lots of beautiful times.
from the day we first met till today.
Its been near 2 years.
To me being there for you was always a simple and enjoyable thing
that i'll just do irregardless to myself. I knew i'd fallen in love with you.
But all this while i just brought down the feelings.
Just being a fren for you. I was afraid.
And now everyday i live my life so so simple.
Cause i've lost you.
How much i wish to say to let you know.
They tell me let it go cuz you've took it up.
I tell this to people but i couldnt tell it to myself.
I'm learning to accept the fact.
The fact that this is love.
Or not. It was just another broken relationship.
Sometimes you wonder wad wrong you've done.
Or it was just a incompetable..
Ahhh.. incompetable..
yeah. it must be..

How shld i pick myself up once more.
Or can i just stay as where i am.
I no longer see myself..
I no longer know myself.
Wad to say now?
Always a loser in this game..
just forget abt it bah..

i...

Young.

Another has passed.
its kinda been 3 days.
and its seems jus yesterday to me.
baby. i miss you.
so much i feel like telling you.
so much i wanna hold u.
tell u how much i love.
nono.
jus let my heart tell you this.
i jus hope u feel everything.
my care concern love.

guess i'm gng back yum cha work for now.
after sch starts mayb i get a perm wkend job.
hopefully i can find some gd jobs.
so i can work for longer period.
and when sch starts it'll get pretty bored.
DSB have been scattered. sigh.
most of us are in different class..
haish.

You're a special girl to me
And you'll always be eternally
Let me be the one to walk you through
Every stages of your life
Be the one you wait for every night
I just want to hold you near
Show you the way
Be your guiding star
I know theres so much i can give
And i want to give
My very best to you
And i hope you'll give me
Just one chance
Let me prove that this is real
That for once
I do love you.
eN.

mehh

Young

Guess i screwed everything up eh.
Feeling like such a loser.
Have u ever felt like there were much more to say.
That there were much more things to do.
And i know i do not want to left them unspoken.
Cause if i do, i'll live to regret my life.
Guess i'm facing a test in life right now.
And please do not let me be the one facing it.
I wish that u'll be here too.
Facing it with me.
Cause if we can go throu it.
I know that our love will grow stronger.
Right now all i can do is jus stand here.
It jus feels like a full stop is coming.
I'm trying to occupy my mind to stop all the thinking.
Let me have even more faith.
My faith love and trust in you.
I love you..
I apologise..