as usual woke up feeling shag for work.
jus got back from batam yesterday.
wondering if i could called it a fruitful trip.
i had fun shopping walking slacking around.
beautiful weather beautiful place beautiful company.
lovely hotel room.
somehow i realise alot of stuffs from this trip.
actually i was also quite hesitant about it.
but i guess wad u went throu might jus make u alittle bit stronger.
u learn to walk and u learn to fall.
guess im still learning to fall.
somehow its kinda in my mind right now.
i jus cant seem to take it off.
i actually do noe wad to do.
but i jus couldnt open up.
i was actually coming up with a decision.
knowing it would really be hurting.
i tot it might be better off this way.
yet something's holding me back.
reluctant to let go.
have u ever felt that u tot u could change the outcome of something
but in the end it doesnt have to change at all.
that u could hold ur ground
but u had to let go?

the hardest thing is letting go.
but no worries.
time always numb away the pain.

thanks for the memories.
it was really sweet.
enjoyed every moments of it.
mayb its time for me to go.
its hard but i'll try.
i wont regret.
cuz i noe ive tried.
and im happy bout it.
at least i dun have to look back complaining i didnt. :))
its back to 8-5

who would stick throu thick and thin?
if you knew that the one thing and only one thing
u're able to provide
and that is love.
would he/she still stayed around?
in rich and famous
or in love and security would u choose to stick around.
wad if all u had was a great heart
but a future unknown
wad would the future be?

it feels like a routine life actually.
same old shit everyday.
same old feeling everyday.
it doesnt change
disappointments lives up to expectations.
and here m i wondering why i dun have tat kind of expectations.
believeing that hope is real.
that man lives for hope.
and that hope jus crushes u instead.
i guess im jus seriously way out of my head.
i jus need a retreat.